I wonder what its like...

I wonder what its like to be a celebrity living the life.
To be the guy who sits there lonely at lunch.
I wonder what its like to live like you were dying.
To die without living.
I wonder what its like to change the world with one speech.
To have my own dream.
I wonder what its like to live in poverty or a third world country just wanting a bowl of rice.
To be the guy who thinks about suicide on a constant basis.
I wonder what its like to not be loved.
To dream but never achieve or to achieve all I dream.
I wonder what its like to be someone looking to change but has already got themselves too deep in the mud. 
To realize I failed it all, I failed everyone.
I wonder what its like to fly. 
To be small and unnoticed.
I wonder what its like to see everything.
To know it all so I couldn't fail.
I wonder what its like to see the "other side" and know what it is like.
To see if I have lived a good life and if it was actually worth it.
I wonder what it is like to change the world or to effect the world completely with my mind.
I wonder what its like to really BE.

Life and Death

Life is love, experience, and happiness.  Live it up. Don't sit and wait for things of the world to happen to you.  Happen to the world.  A young women once told me, "Life sucks and then you die." Which is somewhat true.  Life sucks sometimes.  Why keep it that way? Its gonna suck anyway.  Why not have fun with it and live it up. Change the way you live because everyone dies but not everyone lives. Don't let death come into your life and just give you regrets.  I know i want to look back at the way I lived and say.. Dang, that was sick. 

Being A Tourist

Ya I am kinda being a tourist right now.  Going through the motions and letting everything roll by.  Showing up late to my class and posting in the last 5 minutes of the week.. But now I am going to change.  I am committing to be better in this class right now and I WILL get something special out of this class.  If you see yourself doing what I have been doing then commit. Commit to contributing to this class and then put in the effort.

Fear

Why do we fear? Because we have been trained to fear. Why don't we just accept everything that happens instead of fearing it? Fear is when you are unprepared for a change that happens in your life. Be prepared. Buddha said, "The whole secret of existence is to have no fear.  Never fear what will become of you, depend on no one.  Only the moment you reject all help are you freed."  Be freed young ones...

Why do we cry?

Does crying actually help? Does it really make us feel better? But why do we cry from our eyes? It doesn't make sense, but i think we cry to show we care.  To it seem like it really does matter.  When people care for us we realize we really matter.  The way we know people and see the true person they really are is through their eyes... Lets be honest who cries? babies. Thats it. I just change from real me to fake me because people found out what my name is... frustrating... I want to cry.

I'm Thinking About You

I'm thinking about you like honey thinks about bees,
and Seven things about seas,

Like birds think about trees,
and professionals think about ease.

I'm thinking about you like computers think about electronics,
and words think about phonics,

Like booms think about sonic,
and back pains think about chronic.

I'm thinking about you like the sun thinks about light,
and U.F.C. thinks about the fight,

Like choosing thinks about right,
and dark thinks about night.

I'm thinking about you like Rocky thinks about Bullwinkle,
and stars think about twinkle,

Like chips think about pringles,
and Love thinks about wrinkles.

I'm thinking about you like heat thinks about the sun,
and Spongebob thinks about F.U.N.,

Like finished thinks about done,
and I think your the ONE.

Change.

Change brings out the worst in people but it also brings out the best. It just depends on what people really want to do with it. Some people mope around and cry that things are different but others take their changes and make the world and their lives a better place.  People who it brings the worst out of are the people who look at change with a bad attitude and the people it shows good character for are the type of people who are pumped about life and say, "come what may, and love it".  So in the end attitude is the change.

Love is...

Love is... When you look into to the eyes of a small goat... Love is a small kitten gasping for air... and you realize.. life can't get much better than this. On a more serious note... i think that love is when you look into someone's eyes that you care about and you can see that they care just as much for you... When you get the feeling of accomplishment when you know that your dad is the most proud he has ever been of you when you pushed yourself to the limit and came out on top.  Love is spending endless time with someone and never tiring of their company.. The feeling you get when you open up a birthday card from your grandparents and you read words of love and they express how proud they are for the person you have become..